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This is a series of one shot fics composed of thoughts from characters. Each fic will vary in warnings.
Title: A Lover Laid to Rest
Series: Lover's Thoughts
Author: Sailor Bluestar
Pairing: 6x2, past 13x6 and 13x5
Rating: PG
Warning: Zechs' POV, death
Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing, though I wish.
~Lover Laid to Rest~
Dearest Treize, have you ever envisioned this outcome? Death by your beloved dragon's hands? I wouldn't doubt it, you are such a romantic. You've always viewed the world differently from me. It is only now that I realize that difference.
Did you know my friend, that I often both hated and loved you? I did you know. I had once loved you with all my heart. But you threw it away to be with that Gundam pilot from L5. During the weeks after your rejection, I often thought that you enjoyed his parry to mine. Now, as I look back with my own Gundam pilot by my side, I realize the attraction. I couldn't give you what he gave you. It is as they say, hindsight is 20-20.
Now, in the early morning light, I think back to what ifs. I wonder what would happen if I hadn't reacted as I did. Would you still love me? Would you choose me over him? I doubt it. You admire the beauty and honor of battle. He can give you that. As Duo has told me time and time again, Wufei loves to rant about justice and his beloved Nataku.
It still hurts me to admit, he was a better companion to you than I have ever been. His honor and skill could keep you on edge and very happy. I realize that now. And all the same, I wonder how you would react to my own lover. An ex-pilot, thief, and orphan all rolled into one package. Would you approve as I now approve of you and Wufei?
Perhaps I should talk about what has drawn me so close to him like a moth to a flame. As you have probably noticed, I like to keep my hair long in memory of my deceased father. But when I met Duo, a sort of hair fetish grew on me. I loved the way his silky hair caressed me when we make love. The way he tosses his head in passion is breath-taking. Perhaps that is what we have in common Treize. But I think my Duo has more hair than Wufei.
His eyes show me his soul. His motto: 'I run, I hide, but I never lie' is something I admire. His heart is so pure Treize. It is simply remarkable. Throughout his life, he's known nothing but sadness, and yet he can smile at the world without a care. He loves the truth and it is difficult to lie to him. During my time as an officer, it was difficult to find the truth. And now, he gives it without second thought. My unselfish Duo.
And the best part of all, he lets me care for him like no one has ever cared for him. I know he's been in relationships before, but they always left him alone. I don't plan on leaving him Treize. He will not be alone. I want, no, need to protect him. Sometimes he'll be a big shot, but those are the times when he's most vulnerable. He'll hide his feelings behind chatter and a confident charade. I don't think anyone else has ever thought of those things to be untrue. Not even his fellow Gundam pilots.
Do you believe me Treize? Do you believe how much I love Duo Maxwell? Because I have stopped loving you. I wish your Dragon luck in recovering over you. He's so young. Goodbye Treize. I will mourn you no longer.
OWARI